~feather~羽毛: Phobia comes back again!!

Oh dear... my phobia comes back again.!
Back to 4 years ago, a very terrible incident happened.
And I've slowly erase the flash in my memory..
Today, the same incident happened to me again,
but it aren't that terrible as 4 years ago.

I keep on asking myself..
Why am I so careless while doing something that is so dangerous..?!
Is it until now, I'm still unable to "get out" from that memory?
Am I so dumb until I do not keep an eye on it?
Will that memory be erased from my brain forever?
Or will it just stay at there in my brain forever?

I just wanna get out from that terrible incident memory.
And what I want is that terrible memory will be dumped into the toilet bowl
and flash it forever.

I want my normal life back..
I do not want this incident happen to me again in future.
I MEANT IT!!

Phobia, please leave me. Don't stay in my brain, in my memory anymore!
I can't stand on your torture towards me.

Please... just leave me alone...
forever leave my body.

~feather~羽毛: bad flu, bad sore throat, light fever.

I'm sick!!! Oh my god!!
Today woke up, already having bad sore throat..
In the evening, flu visits me again..
At dawn, having slightly fever..
Arghh!! What is happening to me?
Those sicknesses really love me?

I'm still thinking whether to take MC or not for tomorrow..
I hope tomorrow wake up, all those sicknesses can get away from body.
So that I can go to work..

Just now I drank a cup of salt water...
yucks... the taste was like... urghh!
But that is part of the traditional method to cure sore throat..
which I heard from my late-grandpa..

I want recover!!!
May God bless me..!

~feather~ 羽毛: No mood.... Really no mood..

Today, I really don't know what happened to me..
My mood is so down... My mind thinks a lot of issues..
Can't really figure out what am I doing..

Today I don't feel like wanna go out shopping with family.
It is just happen like that!! I really don't what happen to me.
Don't feel like want to stay at home anymore.

I played back one of the game that I've been stopped for more than 1 year.
And I couldn't find back that "feel" from the game.
Most of my game-mates were all gone.
I really miss those moments, memories..arghh!!! I can't forget it!
And I really miss my game-mates..Really...

Today, I am almost got into a quarrel with my dad.
He is forcing to do the things that I dislike.
I just want to have my own personal space, my freedom.
Maybe because of this, that caused my mood so down?

I hope it is not..

花儿乐团: 穷开心

This song really cheers me up a lot..!!!
Enjoy...!! :)

~feather~羽毛: 4 months...

Time flies too fast...!!!
In a blink of an eye, I have been part of my company's staff for 4 months...
4 months..!! 4 months I have been stepped into the working environment..

To be frank, although I've learn many new things from my fellow colleagues...
Yet, in this 4 months' times, I still can't figure out what the heck am I doing... I'm totally lost..!!
Lost somewhere that is no direction in my life...
And, I still do not know why am I still in there...I mean this company..

I've bean searching for new careers, new environments, new experiences, new companies in Jobstreet EVERYDAY!!! Listen carefully!! IT'S EVERYDAY...in my office!!!
Now you should know why I so keen to leave this company...

Well, to be honest, I do say that my current company is quite good actually.
fresh grad is offered for 2.1k....
But, it is just that the working environment in that company....
that makes me so frustrated..!
And day by day passed by, I've figured out that I am REALLY not suitable in this working environment... I MEANT IT!! OK?!

4 months... my brain has been thinking carefully and seriously...
Keep on asking myself this question: WHAT AM I DOING CURRENTLY?
Does anyone can tell me the answer? Or give just me a single hint....

I can't imagine it..!!

~feather~羽毛landed on BlogSpot

Finally... finally...and finally..
A blog is been setup for ~feather~羽毛
My first time at here....